over these past years it seems as if people have been weeded out so to speak.

some people leave out of my life and i don't understand it.

and others... people i kind of hope would not want to talk to me anymore

or i don't really want to talk to them keep coming back without any stopping.

every holiday. every one? maybe... well probably it is God showing me that i should talk 

to you some more. or try to see what is truly going on in your life. i know why i don't 

talk to you. i am being selfish. i don't want to see that you haven't changed or possibly

have gotten worse. it frustrates me and i would rather not deal with it. so many things 

were wrong about our relationship, and i'm sure you thought they were all fine.

we are not good for each other, and honestly i'm not sure why i dated you. 

i'm sorry that i am not talking to you. 

it would just feel weird if i did.  that night at ruby's was awkward.

constant staring. i just wanted to get out of there.

why did you still have that picture in your car?

i have let go. please can you?