barf.

please stop.
i wish i could tell you how this makes me feel.
but i can't i'm too nice of a person i guess.

i can't compete with that and i shouldn't have to.

i can't stand that you are awkward around me
and the fact that we can't have a real conversation anymore.

my ipod is broken i think.
i hope not because i do not have the money to get another one.

i hate the fact that i only write on here when i am in a bad mood or
something of the sorts.

we will see
what happens.

hehe i'm so flirty blah blah blah.
barf.
once again.

i miss long beach.

it is so much easier to keep in touch being there. 

i miss the weather.

the people.

i feel out of touch.

when i am in one place or another 

i don't hear from people.

there i feel free.

i am able to keep my room, my car,

and everything else in my life 

the way i want it.

i choose my classes and schedule

choose if i want to be messy.

it is wonderful.

according to my father i am always messy.

whether there is one thing on the ground or 

the floor is covered.

i can never please him

maybe he is just complaining to me so he has a 

reason to talk.

anyway.

i got baptized sunday.