hello.

so this semester started.

i am fully enjoying all of my classes

and already procrastinating.

what else is new?

i have not heard from you.

i heard you sent a postcard to stephanie.

i'm glad we are friends too.

i feel some what odd.

people have people.

i cannot think like this.

fiber and painting tomorrow. 

i really want to start this collage but i don't feel motivated to spread it out on the floor and work on it.

sometimes i wish i was here alone. 

hmmm. maybe i will stop procrastinating.

and work on it now.

i'm really excited about my ceramics project,

but i feel like i am not going to be able to make it the way i want to.

this is what i feel with all projects i work on.

i miss you as a friend.

and i cannot let the other become

too close.

because it is not healthy.

i am at a cross road.

the way you think about her.

i feel is definitely not the way you think about me.

why would you say these things to me?

you are confusing me. way more than others have in the past.

anyway i give all of this up to You.

the one who truly matters.

i can wait. i promise.

please be here for me when i am in these moments.

i know You will be here.

what am i saying?