first month in england is almost over.

it's so weird to think that i have been in england for almost a month.

i can't believe it.

i love it here. 

other than the fact that every store closes super early here.

i feel irresponsible though. by the fact that i have to start my work.

and dry run is coming up pretty soon. 

i just need to focus. write out a plan of attack and stick to it.

i just feel sort of intimidated though.

i really like my flatmates.

and all of the glass and ceramics people are super nice.

i can tell i'm going to be good friends with them.

and that i will miss them when i leave. 

but at least it will give me an excuse to come back to england.

i could see myself living here.

i love it. 

but i find my heart breaking.

for the people here.

for my flatmates.

for myself.

i'm not doing well. 

spiritually. i could be doing so much better.

i'm sorry. You deserve more.